[. . . she has to skimp out on the details of the next part too. because, again, she doesn't want to get into the personal parts of this story. the illusion of her family, warm and kind and accepting, so starkly contrasted to how they were in reality, and how she couldn't fight against that kindness no matter how fake she knew it was. how badly Melchior had shattered her heart the moment he had ripped away any semblance of warmth and love and family because of her failure. how she had spent months after that living as a shell of a person, barely able to care for herself, only kept alive by Bienfu's kindness]

[it's pretty pathetic, and she doesn't want him to think of her in such a way. she doesn't want anyone to think of her like that. not when that heartbroken person no longer exists]

Magillanica was excommunicated, of course. Thrown out of the Abbey after having the Mayvin name stripped from her own. She became known as "The Lost Legate" of the Abbey, the only high-ranking commander to disappear from its ranks without a trace.